Valued

The most odd thing happened at work today. Let Me start by saying that I'm not the most appreciated person on the planet. LOL My daughter and My niece love Me, but they are too young to really appreciate what I do (and have done) for them and frankly, I never want them to know the full extent of it because I'm not interested in being a "martyr" parent like My own mother often was. They owe Me nothing for the choices I have made because they were My choices.

My job is basically thankless. The bosses don't give a shit because they know I could be replaced in a second in this economy. Yes, her life would become more difficult because I'm crazy organized and make sure everything runs like clockwork, but I'm not indispensable. The customers also could not give a crap less. Or at least the vast majority of them could not. Once again, this is all fine. I do what I do for the girls and for no other reason.

But today one of my customers came in whom I have not seen in a while. She's been going through some rough times and moved away from the local area recently. She came in today really just to use our wi-fi and say hi. We talked for a while, like we always had and that was about it. Or so I thought. But as she was getting ready to leave she came over and gave me a big hug and told me how glad she was that I was there and how she hopes I'm not planning to go anywhere soon.

Aside from My daughter and niece I don't really feel valued very often. Yeah, Old Bear tells Me on a regular basis how great I am and OB, you know I appreciate that more than I can possibly ever say. You always told Me I was good, strong, wonderful, etc., even when I was at My lowest last year. Even when I didn't believe it, you did. And that meant a lot. But on a normal day to day basis, I get worn down a lot. At work people stare through Me as if I'm not there or treat Me like am another piece of the furniture, at home My sister is an idiot who does ridiculously irresponsible things that I always have to fix, My friends almost all turned on Me when I decided to adopt My daughter and I just never bothered to rebuild a social base because when you've been betrayed like that it makes it hard to trust, and My relatives, hell, don't even get Me started on those pieces of crap. LOL So to have this woman do and say what she did was extraordinary. At least in My experience. It was weird. Nice, but weird.